sweet nothings

I don't have any fancy pictures or anything today, I just wanted to ramble on about how cute our son Jaxson is and how fun it is to be here in New York. Jaxson can now stay on his hands and knees, well only for as long as he doesn't want anything, as soon as he sees something he wants he will reach his hand out to get it and fall on his tummy. It's cute, but I guess he gets scared easy and cries a lot when it happens. He is so funny, he finally has gotten used to his new bed. He is grumpier than can be before he gets there for the night, but once he gets in his bed he comes alive! He does this funny thing where he moves his head back and forth, right and left, as fast as he can. It's so cute, and he does this indescribably cute face, with his eyes half shut and the cutest grin, then he goes to suck his thumb and just kinda flirts with momma. I love it. Right before he goes to bed has become my favorite time of the day. It's so fun to lay on the bed with him and just play. He gets so much energy, but is tired of course, and goes down just fine after I leave. The blessings of being a mother have just blossomed lately. Jaxson makes this funny noise, like he is a motorcycle or something, I can't really describe it in words. But when he does that everyone always looks at him because they think its so funny. His new friend Max thinks its really funny too. Max is only a month older than Jaxson and just laughs when Jaxson makes that noise. I can tell Jaxson is going to want to be the center of attention and in the spotlight all the time. He is eating ginormous amounts now. (sorry that is a word I picked up from my co-worker Jaelynne who is so fun by the way). He is our chunky monkey. He is such a joy to have around out house though, man he's fun.
Seriously, I read just the other day about love, and that its not real love if you expect anything back from the other person...and obviously we think of our spouse or boyfriend when we say that, but I know why the love of a Mother is so genuine and true. It's because we don't expect anything back from our children, we love them for who they are. It takes work, and the harder mothers work and do things for their children, the more they truly love them, that's just a blessing that comes. And I honestly believe that finding real love through family are the greatest blessings on earth.
Nate's job is going fantastic. He is selling great, and has started to figure the whole thing out. He of course goes to different areas often, and this job totally depends on where they are for the area. But for the most part I think it will be a success this summer and we will be able to pay off our bills. I love my job, it's great I can have Jaxson with me. And it's not too demanding. I am going into the city tomorrow again to meet up with Amy. Hopefully all goes well and we don't get lost! All the married couples that didn't bring cars out rented a car, and we put it under Jaelynnes and my name because we are over 25, and I drove to walmart the other day and got kinda lost, and had to pay several tolls because there aren't many exits. It's quite frustrating driving here. Also, one guy got sick out while they were knocking doors and they made me come pick him up, and thats driving all the way from NJ to Queens, very far away, and to top that off, it was right during rush hour. Talk about the worst drive ever, especially since Jaxson cried the last hour. It took us 4 hours all together. Won't ever do that again, but at least I can say that I experienced the commute during Rush hour in NYC! AHH. Life is fabulous for us right now though, we truly are being blessed.